Last Treatment / One Year Survival Milestone / 32nd Birthday

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Wow, can you believe it’s been a year?!  This week, I celebrated my one year survival milestone, my last on site treatment, and my 32nd birthday.  I remember sitting in the parking lot of University Hospital last year, crying on the phone to my mom and Dan, telling them for the first time that the radiologists thought I had cancer.  At that time, everyone was still optimistic and expecting the best – that I didn’t have cancer.  But I knew.  I knew I had it.  And I was worried.  Worried for what lied ahead, worried I had let it go undetected for too long, worried about how it would change my life, and yes, worried about death.  Little did I know, a year later, I would be in a better place – the best place I’ve been in in my entire life – a survivor, a mother, and the happiest I’ve ever been (even without hair). 

This Wednesday, March 24, 2010, marked one year since I got the pathology results.  I remember that day like it was yesterday.  I got out of my car, approached the oncology surgeon’s waiting room, turned the door knob and heard my cell phone ring.  I had been waiting for the call and knew it was them before I even looked at the caller id.  The news was what I expected.  Cancer.  You hear it all the time and for many it’s your worst fear.  For me, it was my new reality.

My family, friends, acquaintances, and people I’ve met along the way have been the best.  I couldn’t have gotten through it without you.  For Christmas, I gave my mom a charm from Things Remembered.  It was a silver oval with a breast cancer ribbon charm hanging in front of it.  I had “Together We Fought” engraved on the front and “I love you Mom” engraved on the back.  Today, at my one year survivor dinner at Nina’s house, my mom gave me the same charm, with “Surrounded by Love” engraved on it.  From Nina and Natalie, I got all my blog entries bound in a story book, including everyone’s comments and personal messages.  Both were such thoughtful gifts that I’ll treasure forever.  I was reading through some of my old blog posts tonight.  It was weird reading what I wrote at certain times.  I think the “chemo brain” has stuck around because there were many things I don’t remember.  But what I do remember is all the support and love I received along the way.  I truly was “surrounded by love”.  Thank you all so much for following my story and sharing in my journey. 

I had a mammogram on Wednesday before my last Herceptin appointment.  It came back clear, just like my MRI a couple weeks ago so that was nice to hear.  Happy Birthday to me!  🙂  My last appointment went great.  Mom came with me.  I sat next to a girl I had met in there a couple months ago.  She was getting her “big” chemo and had lost her hair since the last time I saw her.  It seems like a long time ago when I was going through that.  My hair is still growing back but it still looks atrocious and still too short to let anyone see it.  It was pretty crowded in there this time.  It seemed to be slow over the winter and has picked up again like last summer.  Almost every chair was full again (25 chairs, so around 50 people in there).  The usual mix of people again.  A young girl my age next to me, with her mom by her side.  An older man on the other side, with his elderly wife by his.  All of the nurses congratulated me for being done and cancer free.  It’s weird that I will no longer have to visit the infusion room.  I’ll still go back every three months to see Dr. Limentani and have mammograms and MRI’s every six months, but I won’t have to sit in the infusion room chair anymore.  No more IVs in my arm.  No more cold cancer drugs going into my body, and no more bad memories of eating popsicles and feeling sick.  But I will miss meeting my mom for lunch so often and enjoying her company by my side on those so many Wednesdays over the past year.   

So now, going forward, I’ll see my oncologist every three months for check ups for the first year, every four months the second year, and every six months after that, for eight years.  I’ll also be on Tamoxifen pills for five years, which I started after radiation and haven’t had any side effects from.  I’ll update my blog periodically with the results from my latest scans.  It’s weird to say I’m “in remission” now.  I prefer to say I’m “cancer free”.  “Remission” sounds like that means it’s going to come back at some point.  I don’t think that way.  Nope, I like to say I’m “cancer free”. 🙂 

Well, I’ll close out for now with my latest “My Life in Numbers” stats.  🙂

1.  75+ doctor appointments

2.  1 CAT scan

3.  1 bone scan

4.  3 MRI’s

5.  3 mammograms (including the surprise Voodoo needle one before my surgery)

6.  15 biopsy samples taken

7.  6 “big” chemo cycles

8.  30 Herceptin treatments

9.  66 hours of IV treatments

10.  $300,000 in insurance claims

11.  $8,500+ spent out-of-pocket on medical expenses

12.  30 minutes of Dr. Oz XM/Sirius radio air time

13.  8 wiggies purchased (5 worn, 1 liked)

14.  2 of my pictures on the set of Oprah’s Dr. Oz tribute show and 2 Oprah tickets for a different show

15.  1 new puppy

16.  2 new cars (SC 430 convertible / Acrua RL)

17.  6 sets of Chemo Eve presents

18.  30 chemo popsicles

19.  150,000 hairs lost (resulting in about $1,000 saved from the hair salon)

20.  165 shaves/shampoos/conditions/drys/stylings avoided (that’s about 55 hours of getting ready time!!)

21.  365+ days of wearing a wiggie or hat – BLAH!

22.  2,000+ miles driven to/from doctor appts

23.  3 tumors dissolved!!!!!

24. 2 lymph nodes testing positive for cancer before chemo

25. 0 lymph nodes testing positive for cancer after chemo

26.  33 radiation treatments

27.  165 radiation blasts (5 per visit)

28.  1 lumpectomy surgery

29.  1 lymph node dissection surgery

30.  9 lymph nodes removed (all I had left after chemo)

31. 3 breast cancer walks

32.  $15,000+ raised by team for ACS breast cancer walk

33.  #10 for top personal fundraiser for ACS breast cancer walk

34.  17,732+ blog hits

35.  5 new friends made in the chemo room / wig shop

36.  1 introduction to Nancy Brinker

37.  2 barely visible surgery scars

38.  1,825 Tamoxifen pills to be taken

39.  5 years of not being able to get pregnant, but no worries, because…….

40.  1 new Little Scrumptious baby!!!!! 🙂

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10 Responses to “Last Treatment / One Year Survival Milestone / 32nd Birthday”

  1. Becky Says:

    I’m so happy for you! You’ve done wonderfully and deserve every ounce of happiness!! So proud of you 🙂

  2. Nina Says:

    Hey sis! This was a great update, and an even greater achievement! I was sooooo happy to give you your “cancer-free” party yesterday, and glad that you liked your bounded blog book and other gifts! 🙂 They sure were well-deserved! I think the theme fit the day quite well, ‘Surrounded By Love’ 🙂 . . . . Love you!!

  3. Mom Says:

    My sweet, amazing, Danielle. You had quite a remarkable year and you were so brave, so strong, so courageous, so amazing. You have touched so many lives and made so many of us stronger just seeing how you handled all that you had to go through. We all love you and are so so happy that you have reached this milestone! We can’t wait to watch you and Dan and Aidan grow as a happy family! We love you, sweetie! Your adoring Mom.

  4. Kelly McCombs Says:

    Hello my BF!!
    You little stinker, making me cry while I’m at work 🙂
    I have learned so much from you this past year… what an amazing journey!!! Love you so much. Let’s talk this weekend. Miss you!!!!!!!
    PS – my favorite blog entry!!! EVER 🙂 🙂

  5. Carol Says:

    My favorite blog entry too!! So happy for you, Dan and Aidan.

  6. Gouri Says:

    Congratulations on being cancer free!!!

  7. JBBC Says:

    Oh Danielle, I am crying here! Last year I came across your blog and identified so strongly with your pain regarding your fertility challenges. I cannot tell you how happy I am for you and Dan to have this gorgeous baby in your lives. I wish you and your beautiful family a long life of health and happiness. Marie

  8. Dad Says:

    You have accomplished so much in your life to be proud of and I’m one to say that I’m very proud of the way you have made your life turn out. The proudest moment for me came when I saw how you handled the many challanges you faced during this past year.You truly are loved by many and most of all by your Mom and Dad. I love you very much and I’m proud to tell people that you are my daughter.
    From your proud Dad.

  9. Lucinda Sutton Says:

    Danielle-

    It’s Lucinda from the wiggie shop. We met you there when we came in with my Mom (Linda). That was such an emotional day for her. It seems like ages ago even though it hasn’t even been that long. You offered her such hope when we met and I am grateful for you. I feel like you were put there for a reason that day. You helped her so much. It was great to have someone there that could share in exactly what she was feeling. I wanted you to know how much my Mom (and her family) appreciates you keeping in touch with her through her treatment. Thank you for helping her through this. I am so happy to hear all your good news- cancer free and a baby to love! You have had an amazing journey. I wish you continued good health and all the blessings that you deserve!

    • Danielle Kragnes Murray Says:

      Hi Lucinda! Thanks for your message, that was so thoughtful of you! I’ve enjoyed staying in touch with your mom – she’s such a trooper! I’m so glad her treatment was successful and that I could offer her some help along the way. 🙂


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